Young & The Restless Transcript
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Sutton: This is sutton.
Victor: Hey, sutton. Have you had a chance to review my proposal?
Sutton: Well, I have been wondering whether or not you can be trusted.
Victor: This is a straightforward deal — quid pro quo, alright? I give you
amanda’s letter from her father, the content of which could lead to your
Sutton: And in return?
Victor: In return, you do me a favor one day without fail. The clock is
[ Cellphone vibrates ]
Adam: Talking to anyone interesting?
Victor: Uh, no, just talked to an old friend.
Adam: I wanted to brainstorm some ideas about newman media’s marketing
strategy, if you have time.
Victor: Would you mind if we did that another day? I just have too many
things on my mind right now, okay?
Nikki: Everything alright?
Adam: [ Sighs ] He, um — he seems preoccupied. You have any idea what’s
Nikki: No, I don’T. Have you heard from chelsea?
Adam: Yeah, I got an update from her a little while ago. Anita is on the mend
Nikki: I suppose the better question is, how is connor?
Adam: He’s happy to be having all this time alone with his mother. He’s a
little curious why rey is tagging along, but I told him, since I couldn’t be
there, I was sending somebody I trusted.
Nikki: Not far from the truth.
Adam: Yeah. I’m actually glad rey is there. It’s probably safer for everyone.
Nikki: My thoughts exactly.
Adam: You know, you don’t have to do this whole nice conversation thing every
time we run into each other. I know what you think of me.
Nikki: I might surprise you.
Devon: Hey, why don’t you try and sit down?
Amanda: No, I can’T.
Devon: Will you do it for me at least? ‘Cause you’ve said yourself, these
things take time.
Amanda: For you.
Amanda: I just… victor should’ve met with sutton by now. I need an update.
I need something. How can you be so calm?
Devon: Because I know victor newman, and I know if he says he’s gonna do
something, he’s gonna do it. Just have to be patient.
Amanda: No, I can’T. I can’t wait any longer, okay? I just — I need
something. I need to — I need to figure out what is happening right now. I —
Devon: Just —
[ Knock on door ]
Imani: We’ve got a problem.
[ Cellphone chimes ]
Abby: I just got a text from mariah.
Tessa: She texted — mariah.
Sharon: I just got a text from her, also.
Abby: We should compare the messages that she sent us.
Sharon: Yeah, maybe we can figure out what’s going on. (Vo) imagine a visibly
healthier pet in 28 days.
Abby: Mariah’s text to me says, “I was feeling overwhelmed with everyone’s
constant concern about my health.”
Tessa: Okay, her text to me says, “extending my exploratory business trip.
Just needed a break.”
Sharon: Well, her message to me says, “I had to get away from feeling
smothered. I’m sorry for keeping everyone guessing.”
Abby: Okay, well, at least the lines of communication are open and she’s
being honest. That’s good.
Tessa: Yeah, and she says that she just needs space. “Love, mariah.”
Abby: Well, there’s more to the message that she sent me. She says that she
promises that she’ll be back before our next doctor’s appointment, that she’s
doing fine and she’s taking good care of herself and the baby. And she said,
“your child isn’t giving me too much grief yet.”
[ Laughs ]
Sharon: Well, that’s a relief.
Abby: I feel so bad that she felt so suffocated that she felt like she had to
leave town. When she comes back, that can’t happen again.
Tessa: Yeah, absolutely.
Nikki: Now that you’re living on the property, little honesty can’t hurt.
Adam: [ Chuckles ] Are you sure about that?
Nikki: You and I have a difficult history.
Adam: Well, if we’re gonna be honest, uh, let’s not mince words. We haven’t
liked each other very much. Actually, at all.
Nikki: That’s accurate. But the way you have been trying to improve has not
Adam: I’m just trying to do the right thing.
Nikki: Well, my first instinct was to keep a very close eye on you, just in
Adam: What, just in case it was all an act?
Nikki: Wouldn’t be the first time. But apparently, I was wrong about you.
Adam: It takes a lot to admit that.
Nikki: Your desire to improve yourself seems sincere, and i know how
difficult it is to change. Trust me. I respect the effort you’re making.
Adam: I’m just trying every day to be a better man, a loving father,
dedicated son. But a lot of this is uncharted territory for me. Sometimes I wish
that I had a road map.
Nikki: Well, you have an entire family invested in your success. If you
should happen to get lost, there will always be somebody there to put you back
on the right path.
Adam: Well, that is very good to know.
Nikki: I am rooting for you.
Adam: Thank you, nikki. That means a lot.
Nikki: But know this — if you ever start to backslide or you put any one of
us in danger, you will go right back to being enemy number one.
Adam: I learned a long time ago to never underestimate you.
Nikki: Good. Keep it that way.
Amanda: Slow down, okay? Just tell me what the problem is.
Imani: I dropped by mom’s room before I came over here, and I knocked
repeatedly. There was no response. She’s gone.
Amanda: Okay, imani, it’s not like she disappeared.
Devon: I’m sure she’s fine.
Imani: Well, I looked everywhere I could think of, i called her, texted her a
dozen times. No response.
Devon: Why would she leave after agreeing to let amanda represent her?
Imani: [ Sighs ] Maybe that was just her way of getting out on bail, dropping
out of sight. I spoke to someone at the hotel security, the woman at the front
desk — no one can remember seeing her coming or going all day.
Amanda: Okay, that’s odd, but it is explainable. Just because no one has seen
her at the hotel, it doesn’t mean that she’s left genoa city. She could have
went on a really long walk, and that is hardly a bail violation. But don’t
worry, we will look into this.
Devon: Well, I’ll get out of your hair and let you guys figure it out. I’m
just a call away.
Amanda: Thank you.
Devon: Of course.
Amanda: Naya really picked the worst time to mia. I was just waiting to hear
back from victor newman about his conversation with sutton.
[ Sighs ] Well, that’s gonna have to wait because we can’t get an acquittal
without a defendant.
Imani: Mm-hmm. So how do you propose we track down mom?
Amanda: First step, we get into naya’s room.
Imani: I just told you, she’s not there, which means we won’t be able to get
Amanda: Well, the first thing that I learned when I realized that I need to
make my own way in this world — don’t let little things get in your way.
Brushing only reaches
25% of your mouth.
Sharon: Good night.
Adam: Am I too late? Are you closed?
Sharon: Well, I never turn away someone in need of a good cup of coffee. You
want the usual?
Adam: Yeah. Thank you.
[ Clears throat ] Maybe this is none of my business, but how are connor and
Adam: It is definitely your business, since you’re the one that convinced me
to let chelsea take him to minnesota in the first place. Not to mention…
Sharon: Rey being drafted into going along to make sure everything goes
according to plan.
Adam: Mm-hmm. And it is. So far. At least that’s what I’ve heard from chelsea
and connor. Does rey agree?
Sharon: Well, I have talked to him since he left, but he never really says
that much about his work.
Adam: Of course.
Sharon: You know, I really hope that you won’t end up regretting taking my
advice, letting connor go be with his mom.
Adam: Well, I had to work hard to sell victor on the idea.
Sharon: Can’t imagine that negotiation.
Adam: Mm. He wasn’t entirely wrong about the risks. There still is a chance
that all of us is gonna become a problem down the road.
Sharon: In what way?
Adam: What if chelsea wants to live near anita? Or anywhere else, for that
matter? Then she’s gonna push to have connor live with her permanently.
Sharon: What would you do if that happened?
Adam: I want my son to be with me, period. I should be his custodial parent.
That is what’s best for him.
Sharon: Even if chelsea does get a clean bill of health.
Adam: [ Sighs ]
Sharon: Wait, is there more to this? Hey, I don’t want to push, but you know
that we can talk about anything. You know that.
Adam: [ Sighs ] There — there’s a lot that you don’t know about all this.
Victor: Hi, my baby.
Nikki: Hey. If you’re looking for adam, he’s gone.
Victor: Well, just as well. I have a lot of things to deal with.
Nikki: Oh, yeah?
Nikki: What is going on in that brilliant mind of yours? You’ve been
distracted ever since you got home.
Victor: Yeah. Oh, by the way, we’re leaving for italy tomorrow.
Nikki: I know. I’m counting the hours.
Victor: Well, then, as time is ticking away, I still have a lot things to do
before we leave.
Nikki: Well, I’m glad that congratulating victoria was on that list. I saw
the flowers you sent. They’re beautiful.
Victor: Oh, that. Yeah. Well, you know, actually, you deserve that bouquet of
flowers. I mean, you reminded me that i was not at my best when it came to that
merger. I should’ve congratulated her because she pulled off quite a coup.
Nikki: Well, that’s very magnanimous of you. Of course…
Victor: What? What did I do wrong?
Nikki: Well, I was just gonna say that it would be an even more magnanimous
gesture if you were to congratulate her in person. Maybe you can put that on
your pre-flight to-do list.
Victor: Well, you mean what I did wasn’t good enough?
Nikki: I’m just keeping you honest, darling.
Victor: No one dose it better, you know.
Imani: When you said you don’t let the little things get in your way, I — I
thought you were going to…
Amanda: Pick the lock?
Imani: [ Sighs ] Well, the important thing is you were able to get security
to open up her door.
Amanda: I just don’t know why naya’s suite was emptied out. Why would an
innocent woman pack her bags and skip bail?
Imani: Easier than telling her well-meaning daughters no. She told us how she
wanted her defense structured.
Amanda: Yeah, and we agreed to her terms. We said that we would not implicate
sutton to save her.
Imani: We said that, but either she didn’t trust us from the beginning, or
she figured out we were going after sutton anyway. Based on the last
conversation i had with mom, it didn’t seem like she knew anything about that.
[ Sighs ]
Amanda: There’s another possibility.
[ Knock on door ] Sutton.
Sutton: Something’s happened to naya. I haven’t been able to find her.
Imani: We already know. We checked her suite. She’s disappeared.
Amanda: And there’s no good explanation that we can think of. Unless you’re
the one who told her to run. Feeling stressed in your skin?
Abby: I am so glad that mariah reached out. I feel like I can finally
Tessa: Okay, there’s just one thing I need to say.
Abby: No, not until I clear the air.
Tessa: No, I’ll go first.
Abby: No, you have to hear this first.
Tessa: But after what I say, you might not want to say anything.
Abby: I’m sorry.
Tessa: I’ve just been so tightly wound up.
Abby: Me too.
Tessa: The tension between us is all my fault.
Abby: No, no, it was totally my fault.
Tessa: Let’s not argue about why we’re arguing.
Abby: You’re right. Forgiven?
Tessa: Forgotten. I mean, it never should have happened in the first place.
Abby: I’m so sorry that i snapped at you. Just all this uncertainty with
mariah, it really got to me.
Tessa: Me too. But at least it’s over.
Abby: And mariah’s fine.
Tessa: [ Sighs ] I’m just so glad that it’s not what I was afraid of, that
some lowlife from my past came to put mariah in jeopardy.
Abby: Well, it’s just crazy how your mind can fill in all of the blanks when
you don’t know the full story. Even though our fears were implausible, they felt
Tessa: Just I’m the person who knows mariah the best.
[ Sighs ] I just — I don’t know, I figured that the mood swings were from
the pregnancy, but it was a reaction to me.
Abby: And me.
Tessa: Lesson learned.
Abby: We have to do better.
Tessa: And we will.
Abby: [ Sighs ]
Sutton: If I knew where naya was, you think I’d be coming to you for help?
Imani: Is that why you came here?
Sutton: Not everything I do has a sinister motive. You used to know that,
Amanda: Yeah, you’re only up to something 90% of the time. So coming here,
acting worried, like you need our assistance, that’s exactly what you would do
if you were behind naya’s disappearance.
Sutton: What have I done to deserve this suspicion?
Amanda: Besides arranging my father’s murder?
Imani: Amanda, not now, please.
Sutton: What good does this nonsense do us? I thought we were past that.
Amanda: Oh, we were never past it, and you know it. It just went unsaid
because we both had an agenda that we were keeping close to the vest. Well, now
I think that it’s time that we stop pretending. So I want you to know — I’m
gonna prove that you are guilty of my father’s murder, not naya. And after
everything that you did today, I’m gonna make sure that you pay for it. So now,
you can tell me, where is my mother?
Sutton: I already told you, i don’t know. And we have to work together to
Amanda: No, you better worry about your damn self.
Sutton: [ Chuckles ] Is that a threat against me?
Amanda: I will find my mother. I will handle this the way that I have done
everything my entire life — alone. Now, you took my sister from me. You
deprived me of my father, and I will be damned if you take my mother from me,
too. So you better get the hell out of here. Okay, listen to me right now, we
need to focus.
Sharon: Chelsea faked her breakdown?
Adam: To a degree. She wasn’t well. I mean, no one who did what she did to
rey could be. But she was convinced that I had betrayed her, and her mind took
her to some very dark places.
Sharon: This is shocking.
Adam: I know.
Sharon: And dr. Hedges was involved? He has a good reputation. How could he
be in the middle of this scheme?
Adam: Money. Money talks. And I’m sure that you’re wondering how I could just
sit back and go along with victor’s plan.
Sharon: Yeah, that is surprising that you agreed, given that her whole
objective was to frame you.
Adam: Well, I had no idea what my father had done. I was on the run. And
then, when I came back to town…
Sharon: You were in the hospital…
Sharon: …Donating your kidney.
Adam: When I learned the truth, I kept my mouth shut because I don’t want
connor’s mother to go to prison. I thought going in the mental facility would
help her heal. And her confession did clear me.
Sharon: Well, now that you explain it, I understand.
Adam: Plus, I blame myself for so much of what’s happened. Chelsea was the
one that had a devastating reaction, but I am the one that gave her something to
react to. A lie about her mental state to get her to the hospital is just the
beginning of chelsea’s crimes, but, uh…
Sharon: But what?
Adam: I try not to dwell on this, especially with chelsea out of town with
our son, but… I don’t know, when push comes to shove, chelsea always reverts
Sharon: But some people might say the same about you.
Adam: [ Chuckles ] It’s very common to have
“The young and the restless”
Adam: You are right. Most people will figure any change that I’m trying to
make for myself will be temporary or that it’s all just a show to begin with. I
actually just had a conversation with nikki about that very thing.
Sharon: I assume she thinks the worst of you.
Adam: Actually, she is giving me the benefit of the doubt for now. I hope
that you will have just as much faith that I can pull this off.
Sharon: You really have to ask?
Adam: There is a certain satisfaction that comes from just putting in the
work, trying to be a decent person instead of reveling in being the bad guy. You
know, every day is a new challenge. But I like it.
Sharon: You’re taking stock in yourself.
Sharon: That’s good.
Adam: Yeah, when I think about all the time and energy i invested in creating
conflict, not to mention the weight of all the hate and anger…it’s exhausting.
Just wish I had come to this realization a long time ago.
Sharon: Well, you know, you can’t always force change. I think the trick is
you just stay open-minded about it.
Adam: Hmm. Makes me think about how sure chelsea was that I was going to
steal connor away from her. How primed she was to expect the worst from me. But
maybe your suggestion that i let connor go with her will pay unintended
Sharon: Well, I think it could be important that chelsea sees that you trust
her. It could help her heal.
Adam: Maybe she’ll see me in a different light, too.
Sharon: Since when has it been important to you what other people think?
Adam: It has always been important to me what you think of me. You know that.
Sharon: Worry about the rest of the world, right? We’re fine.
Adam: Mostly. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss you.
Sharon: It’s probably just, uh, your loneliness talking because your
relationship with chelsea is irretrievably over and connor’s out of town.
Adam: It’s deeper than that, sharon. You know that. And that will never
Sharon: I know. Faith’s waiting for me at home. I have to get going.
Adam: Well, it’s perfect timing. Finished my coffee. Thank you for staying
Sharon: Of course.
Adam: Good night.
Sharon: Good night.
Abby: There is more than enough blame to go around, so i am not gonna let you
hog it all, even though you and mariah are a couple and you’re very in tune with
Tessa: Which is why i should’ve known that something was wrong.
Abby: No, I have made so many mistakes. Number one, I mean, I feel like I
know mariah pretty well, and i had no idea that she was having such a hard time.
I mean, think about it. I mean, I was micro-managing every single thing that
went into her mouth. I was worrying every time she left the house. It was too
Tessa: Oh, this is so much better. Competing who can take on more blame
instead of blame each other for mariah running away.
Abby: So much better. You know, when mariah comes back, I am not gonna get an
account of every single moment of her day.
Tessa: Yeah, and mariah can make her own herbal tea, which i will probably
still bring to her, of course.
Abby: Of course.
Tessa: But I’m putting my foot down — she can make it herself.
Abby: [ Laughs ]
Victor: Please have a seat.
Sutton: Thank you. I don’t have much time. I just came from an angry
encounter with my granddaughters.
Victor: Oh, boy, I know what that is about. Being at odds with one’s family
is not nice, is it?
Sutton: It’s brought me to a new level of clarity.
Sutton: Yeah, I know what to do now.
Victor: Really? What’s that?
Sutton: Well, you give me that letter from richard, and when the day comes
that you need this favor repaid, it will be.
Victor: About that letter, sutton.
Victor: Not gonna give it to you.
Sutton: This whole deal was your idea.
Victor: Yeah, I know. But I thought about it, you know? I realized that
amanda would have far better use for it than you do.
Sutton: What kind of game are you playing?
Victor: Ain’t playing a game.
Sutton: You said you had no allegiance to amanda.
Victor: Nothing to do with her. It has everything to do with not wanting to
help you. Now, you and I, sutton, have played on the edges of legality for a
while, you know? But this is different. I mean, you committed a crime. You
betrayed your family. And that I have no tolerance for. Don’t settle for
products that give you a sort of white smile.
Devon: I mean, the way I see it, this is all good news, ’cause mariah’s
taking care of herself and the baby, and she’s checked in, like the responsible
adult that she is. And the tension between the two of you seems to be gone.
Tessa: Yes, that’s true. We’re in a good place again.
Abby: Yes, and more importantly, tessa and I were just discussing how we want
to rethink things for when mariah comes home.
Tessa: Which she said would be in time for her next doctor’s appointment.
Devon: Good, good. Is something wrong, tessa?
Tessa: I don’t want to rain on any parades, but look,
[Sighs] I’ve said it before. She could’ve called. All of us. Or just one of
us, because she knew that we would worry, but she only reaches out through text?
Abby: Maybe it’s because she’s that if she hears one of our voices, she’ll be
tempted to come home before she’s ready.
Tessa: I guess.
Abby: You know what? I don’t know about you guys, but when mariah returns, I
don’t want her to feel a bit of pressure. All I want her to feel are little,
tiny baby kicks from inside from a baby who’s eager to meet all of us.
Victor: Sutton, you’re the head of your family. There’s no greater
responsibility. You were given the gift of two beautiful twin granddaughters.
You didn’t protect them. Didn’t do a damn thing for them. You turned your back
on them. Why? To protect your own rear end.
Sutton: I did what I had to do.
Victor: That’s what all politicians say.
Sutton: You are no better than me. I’ve heard all the stories about your
awful relationships with your own children.
Victor: You haven’t heard all of them. There were many. And I have made
mistakes. I admit to it. But one dictum, one mantra I’ve always lived by — I
never turn my back on my family. I never leave them to their own devices. That’s
why I’ve created this new company with my son adam. The guy that a lot of people
had given up for a lost cause. That’s why I appointed my daughter victoria to
run newman enterprises, a company that I created. You turned your back on your
family out of selfishness. Now you’re paying for that.
Sutton: You’ve always had your billions of dollars to buy your way out of
your problems. I don’t have that luxury. I had to remain untouchable. My power
base has to be secure. That’s the only way I can ensure my family comes first.
Victor: And richard nealon, amanda’s father, got in the way of that?
Sutton: Uh-huh. Yeah, richard… he was trouble. Naya deserved so much more.
He wasn’t like us. It’s a miracle that somebody with his background even made it
to college. And my pride and joy had to go and get herself pregnant with that…
well, if that meant that two accidents of birth had to be sacrificed, then, by
god, so be it.
[ Stammers ] It was for the greater good.
Victor: Oh, yeah.
Sutton: I can live with what I’ve done. Richard was a nobody. He was a gnat.
And he could’ve brought down everything I’d worked for. Well, that was a risk I
was not willing to take. Now give me the damn letter.
Victor: What letter is that, sutton?
[ Door opens ]
Imani: I’d like to hear that answer, too, grandfather. What letter? Are you
tired of clean clothes that just don’t smell clean?
Devon: Alright. Well, now that I know everything is cool with mariah and that
you’re feeling better about everything, I should probably go and check on
amanda, ’cause she’s been having a tough time tonight.
Tessa: Oh, I hope everything’s okay.
Devon: Oh, thank you. If it’s not, I know she’ll make it right, so…
Abby: Hey, devon, um, before you go, I — I just wanted to thank you for
talking me down earlier, reminding me of what chance would say in a stressful
situation. It really helped.
Devon: I’m glad it did. You have a really good guy who loves you, puts you
first and foremost, so hang on to him.
Abby: I will. I’m very lucky to have you remind me of that.
Sutton: I don’t know how much you heard —
Amanda: We heard more than enough.
Sutton: Well, I’ll deny it. Every word — it was all said in the heat of the
Amanda: Well, we recorded every word. So you can deny it all you want, but
this is exactly what I need to save my mother and to prove that you are the one
who had my father killed. Victor knew exactly what to say to keep you talking.
Oh, and by the way? There is no letter. There never was.
Sutton: These charges will never stick.
Amanda: We’ll see.
Sutton: Amanda, just tell me what you want.
Amanda: I want my father back, you son of a bitch.
Sharon: I don’t need any saving. I didn’t come here to cry on your shoulder.
Adam: You can, sharon. Okay? You can be or feel anything you want with me.
Sharon: You know, you’ve convinced yourself that you’re damaged somehow and
you’re flawed and beyond saving, but, you know, that’s not true. Yeah, you’re in
a dark place right now, but I can see the path — light and hope — and I just
— I want to help you find that. I want to.
Adam: You know that i would — I would do anything to take this all away.
Sharon: I can’t imagine what my life would be like right now if you hadn’t
rescued her. I know I — know I-I couldn’t survive the loss of another child.
Adam: Well, I’m just glad i was in the right place at the right time. Anyone
would have done the same thing.
Sharon: But I know that you put your freedom at risk in order to do it. So,
no…not just anyone would have made that choice. I’ll never forget what you
were willing to sacrifice for faith and me.
Adam: When I was trapped with nick, I’ve realized that you are a part of me,
sharon. And you always will be. There’s no denying it. I told myself that I was
leaving to protect you, to protect everyone, but… no matter how fast or far
away i run, you will always be right there with me. The fact that I’m standing
here right now is just further proof of that.
Sharon: No, you’re here for faith, nothing more.
Adam: Sharon… just hear me out, okay? Before nick found me, I had a lot of
time alone. He only knew where to find me because of you and your insight…
into me. You’ve always understood how my mind works. I mean, even when I had
forgotten who I was, and I was living in vegas. And after I learned what I had
done to A.J. Montalvo as a kid, you see me, sharon. You see me in a way no one’s
been able to do… not even chelsea. And I don’t expect anything to ever come of
it, because I know nothing can come of it.
Sharon: You say all these beautiful words, these… seductive and tempting
words, but…here is the truth, adam. I can’t be that for you. I can’t — I
can’t be that for you. You — you have got to accept that you and I are not
going to get back together.
Adam: Because of rey? I mean, can you honestly compare your feelings for him
to what you and I shared?
Sharon: No, I cannot because I’ll never love him the way that I loved you.
Adam: So let’s not waste any more time.
Sharon: But that doesn’t mean that my love for rey isn’t strong. He — he
supports me. He builds me up. He gives me strength. Whereas, with you… things
are just complicated. You have to get better for the sake of your family!
Adam: No. No. What I need is to get out of genoa city with my family. That is
what’s gonna make me heal, okay? Or call the judge, okay? Call the judge. Tell
him you’ve made a mistake. Tell him that you saw me, you’ve spent time with me,
and you’ve realized that you made a mistake, okay? If I ever meant anything to
you, sharon, fix this. Okay? Save me.
Sharon: I can’T. You know that. You know that.
Adam: Okay? I’m very tired.
Sharon: Alright, well, try to rest.
Adam: I just — I don’t know if I can.
Sharon: I’ll help you.
Adam: Well, um… will you stay?
Sharon: I’ll be right here. I’m not going anywhere.
Adam: You and I — we had a lifetime of history before I ever met chelsea.
Sharon: Well, maybe that’s just what it is. It’s history. You know, you can’t
just compartmentalize whole relationships of this scope.
Adam: That — that is shrink talk. Your training — it doesn’t apply to us.
There’s no chapter in that psychology textbook that can explain you and me.
Sharon: You love chelsea, okay? Not me.
Adam: Don’t push me away. You will never love rey the way that you love me.
This — you and I — it is meant to be.
Sharon: I-I can’T. I-I won’T.