Young & The Restless Transcript
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Billy: You know that thing in your life that you want to hold onto so desperately? You do so so tightly that you end up draining it of its joy. You end up squeezing the life out of it. The thing you want the most becomes the most illusive, and your frustration grows because you’re trying to control something that is out of your control. You end up closing off or hitting a wall. I can’t be the only one. But I think I might have just landed on something that helps me. By closing my eyes, by quieting my system, by calming my mind and simply breathing. I sit here open to the possibilities, the opportunity to allow the thing that I want most in my life…to arrive.
Phyllis: Thank you for bringing in my luggage. You’re such a gentleman.
Jack: It is the least I can do after all you did for me in la.
Phyllis: I’d like to do a little more for you.
Phyllis: Yeah, I’d like to do a deeper dive into who’s sending you those texts.
Jack: Thank you. I can’t even think about that right now.
Phyllis: Okay. Well, I understand. The whole trip, it was a lot to process, that you have a new granddaughter.
Jack: Yeah, I wouldn’t have gotten through any of this without your companionship and support. You know that.
Phyllis: I was happy to be there. You can count on me.
Jack: Thank you.
Phyllis: Honestly, I wish i would’ve gotten a chance to get to know allie a little better.
Jack: Yeah, same here, but I haven’t given up. It may still happen.
Allie: Hey, dad. I still can’t believe that you’re really gone, dad. I miss you so much. Why did this happen? What am I gonna do without you?
[ Door closes ]
Jack: [ Sighs ]
[ Cellphone chimes ]
Billy: What I’m talking about is meditation. Now, let me be very clear. I am early in on this journey, and from what I understand, it’s not a cure-all but more a tool to help you calm your mind. And as I sit here with my small sample size, it has helped me get into a mind-set to talk to you all freely, with no barriers, with no hang-ups, without over-thinking it. Because the truth is I’m not sure where this adventure’s going to take me emotionally or otherwise, but I’m not gonna think about that. I’m gonna take a leap of faith and I’m gonna put it all out there. And I’m gonna enjoy the ride.
Devon: Jill! How you doing? It’s great to see you. You look amazing.
Jill: Well, you look healthy and happy yourself. Thank you for chatting with me.
Devon: Oh, absolutely. You know I’ll chat with you anytime. It’s actually funny that you wanted to do this because I was planning to reach out to you to discuss something.
Jill: Really. Maybe we want to talk about the same thing. Why don’t I go first?
Devon: Be my guest.
Jill: Why the hell are you throwing away the chance of a lifetime? This is the sound of nature breathing.
Billy: Now, I can’t take credit for this new approach. The suggestion came from my amazing sister, and of course, i gave her a hard time about it in the beginning, ’cause that’s what I do, but once I got over myself and I actually tried it, she was right. Because she’s always right. And like I said, I am just beginning to dabble in it, but so far, so good. And I am fully aware by even talking about it, it might defeat the purpose and maybe this is gonna come across very annoying, like I am describing my dreams, and if that’s — if that’s the way it comes across, I apologize. And who knows? Maybe nobody’s gonna even listen to this in the first place. But I have to say that I have had a blessed life. But I’ve also had my struggles. I’ve had a fair share of pain and I have made mistakes. So if this offering can help one person or, better yet, collectively, we can help each other get past the things that hold us back, then, without question, all of it…is absolutely worth it.
Traci: Oh, I thought I heard somebody down here. When did you get home?
Jack: Just got in.
Traci: Well, I am dying to hear every detail about your trip, but if you’re tired, i understand.
Jack: Oh, no, I’m so wound up, I can’t even think about sleeping.
Traci: Mwah. Well, how about I make us some tea?
Jack: You know what? That sounds great. Oh, and about the talk, fair warning, I got a lot to tell.
Traci: I assumed as much.
Jack: It’s stuff I want to tell the whole family, but I’d love to run it by you first, if you’re okay with that.
Devon: I imagine that the chance of a lifetime I’m throwing away is merging chancellor and hamilton-winters, right?
Jill: Good guess. Must be why you have the ceo title and the big office.
Devon: Well, you know, those are two things that I really do love, jill.
Jill: Oh, I’m sure you do. But before you say anything else, let me just tell you that when lily first pitched the idea to me, I was floored. But I quickly came to realize, devon, it is inspired. Together, our two companies would be unstoppable. Look what the newman/locke merger has done for those entities.
Devon: Yeah, I can definitely see the possibilities, but you and I both know that there are complications that come with making a power play like that.
Jill: With a company as big as ours would be, we could handle any difficulties.
Devon: No, I know that, jill, and, believe me, I haven’t stopped considering it at all. I just feel like we need to focus on this first joint venture that we have going and see how that goes first before we take the next step.
Jill: Oh, I already know how it’s gonna go — fabulously. It’s you and lily. I see nothing but success for any co-production between the two of you. But let me say that I think delaying the bigger move would be a huge mistake. Think about what katherine or neil would do in this situation.
Devon: Yeah, I’m pretty sure that neil and katherine would both take their time before making such a big decision like this, and they would weigh everything very carefully.
Jill: And then they would both agree this is the right move. I have looked at this from every single angle, and I have to tell, it almost seems like it was written in the stars. Katherine would love that you were involved in running chancellor.
Devon: I know that what you’re saying is true and I also know that neil would love to know that his kids are working together, because we created hamilton-winters to be a family company.
Jill: And on top of all that, you are now a third parent to my great-grandson. How much more family can we get?
Billy: The good, the bad, the ugly, and everything in between — that’s what you’re gonna get from me. And I thought that I would start with a story about a sweet little girl whose death changed my life forever. Now, I should probably warn you, there are parts of this story that are a little bit rough. But it’s the defining moment in my adult life and, for me, the only place to begin. A shocking loss that led me down a path into darkness. A cautionary tale that gets worse before it gets better. Now, I don’t think that I will ever entirely heal, but the truth is I’m not sure if I want to, and the fear is that I would somehow lose the memories. Somehow my sweet daughter would disappear in some sort of way, and…I like having her there in whatever capacity I can get. But her memory has not been serving me in the way that it could. And I’m hoping that I finally figured out that the key to it is to love her, honor her, and celebrate her without letting the pain and grief and anger drive me. Now, the ending of this story isn’t exactly happy because happy would mean that she is still here. But it’s filled with beautiful memories. And the fact that I was able to love her, and that gives me strength, and I’m hoping that this can be an uplifting, empowering story. Because with all the pain, I am still forever grateful and consider myself incredibly lucky that I was able to know her in the way that I did. Even if it was for way too short of a time.
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Jack: “I found a way to let go of my anger. I’ve forgiven you. But I can’t see you or be part of your life. I’m sorry for that. I wish I was stronger or better somehow, but this is the way it has to be, at least for now. You should know, even though i still can’t bring myself to bridge that gap, that de– that deep down…a son will always love his father.”
Traci: Oh, jack.
[ Sighs ] I’m so glad that you weren’t alone when you found these, and I wish I had been there for you.
Jack: You know what? Phyllis was really there. She was as strong and as good a friend as I could’ve asked for during this emotional roller coaster.
Jack: I just wish I’d reached out to keemo one last time.
Traci: Oh, no, no, you cannot blame yourself for that. A relationship is a two-way street.
Jack: Yeah, my brain knows that, my heart still just hurts.
Traci: Jack, it’s gonna take time.
Jack: Yeah. Yeah, it’s gonna take time, and my emotions have been all over the place.
Traci: Of course they have, because they’re trying to make sense of something that doesn’T.
Jack: How is it you always know the right thing to say?
Traci: [ Chuckles ] I don’t know about that, but I’m just doing the best I can, same as you. And this situation is so overwhelming.
Jack: You don’t know the half of it.
Traci: [ Sighs ] I’m afraid to ask. What — what? There’s something more?
Jack: Well, when luan died, keemo left genoa city and he got on with his life. He found some happiness. He met someone. He fell in love. He got married. He had a child.
Traci: I’m sorry, what?
Jack: You have a great-niece. I have a granddaughter.
Traci: Oh. [ Chuckles ] Oh, jack!
Amanda: Thank you for calling me. We are so overdue for some girl time. So tell me about all of your adventures with jack.
Amanda: Okay, I didn’t mean that the way that it sounded.
Phyllis: Uh, definitely adventure — I don’t know if it’s the right word. I mean, it just felt really great giving emotional support to jack when he’s usually extending that to me.
Amanda: Well, I’m really glad that you were there for jack when he needed you. And I don’t know what happened, but is there any way that these supportive feelings turned romantic?
Phyllis: It wasn’t like that at all.
Traci: Okay, you’re gonna have to go back and take me through this one step at a time, ’cause I — I mean, how old is she? What’s her name? Did you get to meet her?
Jack: Her name is allie. I met her today, and she is a bright, beautiful young graduate student.
Traci: Okay, so we’re not talking about a little girl.
Jack: Oh, no, no, she’s an adult. Here. Yeah, I missed out on her childhood the same way I missed out on keemo’S.
Traci: Oh, jack, she’s just beautiful.
Traci: Is she the one that’s been sending you these cryptic texts?
Jack: No. She had no idea who I was. Now, who– whoever sent those texts, if the purpose was to get me closer to my granddaughter, the texter succeeded.
Traci: How is it possible she didn’t know anything about you?
Jack: Because keemo insisted she not know I even existed.
Traci: Oh, jack, I’m sorry.
Jack: Yeah, it’s a lot to take in, but I’ll work my way through that.
Traci: Yes, yes, you will, and I still have a whole bunch of questions. Starting with, when do I get to meet this new member of our family?
Jack: Well, I’d love for that to happen soon, but…not right away. No, I — if it’s going to happen — and believe me, I want it to happen — it’s gonna take some time.
Billy: After I lost my daughter, I felt myself building these walls around my heart, around everything good in my life, and maybe that was self-preservation. Clearly I was trying to protect myself, but the problem was these walls were built with hatred. And they were aimed directly at the person responsible for her death.
[ Sighs ] I realized that really it was me avoiding dealing directly with my sense of loss…and with my own guilt. All of it festering under the surface. At times, lying dormant, but at other times erupting, and when it did, it wasn’t good. I acted out in a way that was scary and sometimes very troubling. At one point, pushing my mind to actually splinter.
[ Sighs ] But I’m lucky. I had the love of a good friend and I had therapy to put myself back togetheR. And after backsliding more times than I care to mention… something amazing happened to me. Something very surprising. Something that saved me. Pure and simple…love.
Devon: Well, thank you for coming by. Hope I didn’t call you too late.
Lily: No, no, I was up. Is everything okay? Dom’s good?
Devon: Yeah, yeah, dom is getting better every day.
Lily: But I’m guessing you called me over here for more than just a catch-up?
Devon: Yeah, yeah, I did. Jill called me tonight.
Lily: To talk about the merger?
Devon: Mm-hmm, yes.
Lily: Okay, I did not put her up to that, I promise you.
Devon: I know you didn’T. Nobody puts jill up to anything.
Lily: That’s very true. So…what happened?
Devon: She wouldn’t take no for an answer is what happened.
Lily: Does that mean that she convinced you?
Devon: [ Chuckles ]
Lily: [ Chuckles ]
Traci: How is it that allie doesn’t want to see you again after just having met you?
Jack: Actually, allie proposed that we get together sometime in the future, you know, for coffee next time I’m in la. It’s cute. I made the same offer. I don’t expect much to come of it.
Traci: Why not?
Jack: Well, I think her first instinct is to run for the hills and forget we ever met. Now, I don’t blame her. I really don’t, on some level. She has her own life. She’s mourning her father’s death. And I show up in the middle of her grieving and it’s like a bomb. She was as shocked by my existence as I was by hers. I don’t blame her if she decides she wants to back up and walk away.
Traci: Well, I take all of your points. It’s just I find the whole situation so heartbreaking.
Jack: Yeah, it didn’t exactly go like I planned. But I’m not giving up. I am convinced I can forge some kind of relationship with my granddaughter, some kind of bond. She just needs time to get used to the idea — it’s more than time. I — I have to find some way to let her know artfully, carefully, subtly, that the abbotts’ door is always open to her.
Allie: I wish you could give me a sign or something, dad. God, I am just…so confused. In the past, when I needed to talk to someone, you were the one who I turned to. When things got rough, I leaned on you. And now… I have no one.
[ Sighs ] Or at least nobody like you. Mom is a million miles away, busy with her own life. And we both know that’s never gonna change. You’re gone and, uh…you’re never really coming back, are you? And now…jack abbott shows up. How do I know if I can trust him? I mean, the last thing I would want to do is disgrace your memory by doing something that you wouldn’t approve of. If you cut him out of your life, then shouldn’t I do the same? My a1c stayed here,
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Phyllis: What happened with jack in california was so heavy. I mean, all the emotions that he dealt with, the loss of his son, then all the other stuff that came up, it just…
Amanda: I’m sorry. I am — I’m so sorry that i tried to make light of the situation by, you know, asking if it went romantic.
Phyllis: No, you’re okay. I mean, it just wasn’t that kind of trip.
Amanda: Okay, I got it.
Phyllis: Yeah, and, you know, jack and I are not in the romantic mind-set.
Amanda: Mm. Great.
Phyllis: I thought we made that clear. I mean, I thought we were okay on that.
Amanda: Yeah, I put that topic to bed.
Phyllis: Oh, good, good, because it’s a non-starter.
Amanda: Okay, well, you’re the one that still keeps talking about it.
Phyllis: I’m not talking about it, just…
Amanda: I just want to say that I know that jack appreciated you being there for him. You are that rare person that would drop everything and fly across the country when somebody needs you.
Phyllis: That’s sweet. I am.
[ Chuckles ] And it wasn’t a sacrifice, by the way. I was happy to be there for jack.
Amanda: See, I think that you and jack, your relationship has just — it’s reached a new level, even if it’s not romantic.
Phyllis: You know what? It has. You’re right, it has reached a new level.
Jack: Well, I have been going on and on. What do you think?
Traci: [ Sighs ] Well, I don’t want to dampen your hopes.
Traci: I also don’t want to see you set yourself up to be disappointed.
Jack: I’m calling it guarded optimism.
Traci: [ Chuckles ] I consider myself an optimist, too.
Jack: I know. I know where you’re going next. I’m telling you, you don’t have to worry about me. I am moving forward with my eyes wide open, well aware this may not work out. But I’m thinking maybe the door won’t always be closed. I see in allie this bright, resourceful young woman, but i also am aware she needs family. She’s lost family. Her whole family’s been upended.
Traci: What about her other relatives? I mean, where’s her mother?
Jack: Well, she said that keemo and her mother divorced some time ago and that she and her mother have kind of a rocky relationship. When I look in her eyes, I just see someone who’s alone, afraid, and sad.
Traci: She’s not the only one who’s sad, jack.
Jack: Yeah, it’s been a rough time all around.
Traci: But you have handled this with generosity and grace, and I admire your determination. I know I had reservations, but i am so grateful that you went all the way to los angeles looking for answers. And you found allie. And I’m equally glad that you’re home, where your family can take care of you.
Jack: Thanks. Needed this.
Traci: [ Laughs ] And speaking of family, everyone else is gonna want to know every detail.
Jack: You know what, you know what, I do want to tell everyone, but look at the hour. Not everyone’s on la time. You know what? I’m gonna go for a drive and try to wind down.
Traci: [ Chuckles ] Jack, you are going to work your way through this, and you’re not gonna have to do it alone. I love you so much.
[ Chuckles ]
Jack: I love you. I cannot believe my son is gone.
Traci: I know.
Jack: But I am determined not to let that happen to my granddaughter.
Devon: Yeah, no, jill just made about as good of an argument as you did about why we should merge the companies.
Lily: Okay, but are you buying it?
Devon: Um…the more I think about it, the more I love the idea of paying homage to family. I will say that.
Lily: So does that mean you’re closer to a yes than before?
Devon: I would have to see a very detailed proposal on how it would all work out.
Lily: Well, funny enough, i actually already have one made, ready for you to view.
Lily: I do.
Devon: I bet you do.
Lily: [ Laughs ]
Devon: I bet you do.
[ Chuckles ] You never doubted yourself on pulling this off, have you?
Lily: No, that’s not true. I just… I was really hoping that the idea of bringing family together would eventually sway you.
Devon: [ Chuckles ] That’s another thing, too, ’cause, like, the benefits of a merger are obvious to me, of course. But I would want to make sure that that never caused any trouble between you and me. Just ’cause I know, we’ve seen family, you know, turn on each other because of business, and i don’t want that to ever happen.
Lily: I understand that. But I really don’t think that’s gonna happen to us. I mean, first of all, I trust you more than anyone else in the world. And secondly, like, we’ve been through so much together, right? Like, teenage years, everything. I mean, in my mind, there’s no amount of corporate friction that could ever sever our bond.
Devon: No. Are you sure about that?
Lily: Yes, I am. And honestly, I would step away from all of it if our relationship were ever put on the line.
Devon: You’d step down as ceo?
Lily: Absolutely, yes.
Devon: Well, I mean, I guess then I would have to make that same promise to you. And if anything ever goes bad, I’ll step down, too.
Lily: So are we on the same page?
Devon: I think we are.
Lily: Okay, I want to hear you say it.
Lily: Say the words.
Devon: I’m ready. I’m ready to take this shot. Let’s do it. Let’s make dad and katherine proud.
Lily: Oh! I’m so happy.
[ Both laugh ]
Devon: Me too. A jelly bean that’s good for you?
Billy: How was your evening?
Lily: Well, I’m very glad you asked. It was amazing. How was yours?
Billy: It was good, but i want to hear about yours first.
Lily: Well, I had a breakthrough with devon and the merger. So a lot of work and negotiations have to be done, but I think it might actually happen.
Billy: Oh, my gosh, that’s amazing. Congratulations. How did you convince him?
Lily: Well, I mean, your mother, of course, helped, but i think the clincher was that i told him no business would ever come between us. And I meant it, you know? We’ve been through so much together. I really do believe that our relationship is unbreakable.
Billy: I don’t doubt it.
Lily: So what’s your news? Tell me.
Billy: Well, I had a bit of a breakthrough myself. You know that traci suggested i try meditation, so I have for the last few days, and I have to say, it has really helped calm my mind and helped me feel open emotionally. I just finished my first podcast, and I have to say, it felt good. I put it out there for the world to hear.
Lily: That’s amazing.
Lily: Are you happy with it?
Billy: I am. Yeah, I mean, I don’t know if anyone’s gonna listen to it, but that’s not up to me. But it felt cathartic.
Lily: Wow. See? I knew you could do it. I knew you’d find a way to get your inspiration out. I can’t wait to hear it.
Billy: Well, I should warn you, little bit of a spoiler alert, you do factor into it, kind of a reoccurring theme.
Lily: Oh, god.
Billy: No, it’s not bad. It’s — it’s all good because the truth is, I’ll never get tired of telling you that you saved my life.
Amanda: I’m home.
[ Chuckles ] How you doing?
Amanda: I’m good. Mm. [ Chuckles ] Well, that is a really nice welcome home.
[ Both laugh ]
Devon: There’s more where that came from.
Amanda: Whoa, okay, okay. Okay, romeo.
Devon: [ Chuckles ]
Amanda: Am I just that irresistible today or is something else going on?
Devon: Well, you’re irresistible every day, but, yeah, I do have some big news. Uh, lily and I have decided to move forward with merging our companies.
Amanda: Are you kidding?
Amanda: Wow, that’s — that’s fantastic.
Devon: Yeah, I thought so.
Amanda: Yeah. I’m happy for you, really.
Devon: Is that your happy face?
[ Chuckles ]
Amanda: I’m just — I’m hoping that lily didn’t push you into this.
Devon: No, I promise you she didn’t at all. I considered her options and i got input from other people, but, no, the decision was mine.
Amanda: And you thought this through?
Devon: Yes, I did.
Amanda: Okay, well, then I’m ecstatic.
Amanda: I’m so excited.
[ Both laugh ]
Devon: Well, thank you. There’s still a lot of — a lot of stuff to nail down, but…
Amanda: Yes, and as the head of chancellor’s legal department, I am well aware this deal is gonna be complicated, but potentially groundbreaking. And there’s the added bonus of the two of us working together.
Devon: Oh, that’s right. That is right.
Amanda: Oh, I will be tough but fair.
Devon: You’re always fair.
Amanda: [ Laughs ]
Devon: Mm. I haven’t been this happy in a very, very long time, you know that?
Devon: Yeah. Between you and dominic getting healthy and this merger and everything, just feels like life is coming together really, really well. And you know, when we pull this off, it’s not just gonna change our lives and lily’s life, our two families’ legacies will never be the same again.
[ Both chuckle ]
Phyllis: Hey. Oh, what are you doing here? Is something wrong?
Jack: No, no, no, I just couldn’t sleep.
Phyllis: Neither can I.
Jack: I also wanted to take one more chance to say thank you for being there for me the last couple of days.
Phyllis: I was happy to do it. You don’t need to keep on thanking me.
Jack: I am not gonna let you be dismissive of the kindness and friendship and loyalty you’ve shown. It means the world to me.
[ Cellphone chimes ]
Phyllis: Is that the texter? Hey, what does it say? Don’t keep me in suspense. What can I du with less asthma?
Billy: I’m not sure I’m in a position to be giving advice to anyone. I’ve gone about a lot of things in my life the wrong way. But I’m hoping maybe my mistakes can serve as a warning to people who are at risk of falling down the rabbit hole like I did. Everyone’s experience is different, and what may help one person may not work for another. But, like I said, my saving grace was — as the old cliché goes — pure and simple…love. Love can often come as a it can also make you look at the future with fresh eyes. I’m a big believer in second chances. And third and fourth and fifth chances — coming to you when you least expect it.
[ Gasps ] Is someone there?
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Devon: I thought I heard nate’s voice in here. What are you doing?
Nate: How would you like to be neighbors again?
Jack: It’s from our friendly anonymous texter. “Doing what I can to help. I think allie might be more receptive soon.”
Ashland: I get the sense that you think that I’m about to break down and make some kind of confession here.
Victoria: If there is a confession that needs to be made, then now would be the time to make it.